And so this is Christmas...
Christmas is only a few short hours away...and I'm nervous. This year will be the first year I'll spend with both parents since I was 9 months old. I'm worried that it's not going to all go smoothly or something. I want everything to just be perfect, that they'll all like her and that my brothers and sisters on mums side will behave themselves and yeah. I don't want to be embarassed or have a bad christmas. I am excited though, and looking forward to it. And it's not normal for your brother and sister to think each other is hot right? Even if they're not related to each other...

I've also spent a ridiculous amount of money on presents this year and have none to open tommorow. Well I tell a lie, there is the firefox dvd I bought for myself, but I don't think it really counts. I am getting presents, I've just already installed the RAM and the iriver won't arrive for afew days. Bah. Gift of giving right? Still none of my grandparents or uncles and aunties have bought me anything cause I'm too old. And they all forgot my birthday last year. I feel so excluded from my family sometimes. Especially since I was kicked out... Like I'm the black sheep because I'm fat and weird and geeky and they don't get me. I mean ok, I don't see most of them often cause they live far away and I know they love me and stuff but I always feel the need to prove not only myself to them but my mum and siblings and everything up here.

Blah upon it all. All shall be well and all shall be well and all manner of things shall be well. Damnit. :P

Did the colour quiz again to see how I was feeling today.

Rae took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test! "Needs a way of escape from all that oppresses her ..." Click here to read the rest of the results.

Fairly accurate I feel.... Now to bed!